My roommates, as I've said in other posts, are amazing. Seriously, they are my best friends. One of the greatest things that's happened to me this semester is that I actually began to feel like I belong. This is big deal since I have a habit of never fitting in. I forgot what it felt like to have real genuine friends who actually make time to fit you into their lives. Ever since my best friend started dating her now husband I have only felt second best. Now don't get me wrong, I hardly ever felt unwanted or unloved, but it's nice to feel genuine friendship again. Right now I'm planning a trip to HAWAII with one of my roommates!! Who knows if it will actually happen, but it's fun to think about. Financially, it's going to be a struggle and we're actually planning to camp out on the beach because we won't be able to afford food AND a place to stay. It will be a success!!
Family life has been a ROLLER COASTER this semester. I don't even want to think about it. The most important thing is that family is always there for one another.. no matter what. My parents are seriously the best examples. They are so patient, forgiving, and all around loving. This family wouldn't be a family without them.
My little brother has four and a half months left. Seriously, time couldn't pass any slower every time I think about him. Do you think it's normal that I'm terrified to see him in person again?? What if he'd rather hang out with his friends? What if we've both changed so much in the past 3 years that we don't even like each other? What if he never even missed me at all?? I'm sure that this has been the anxiety of every friend/family member/significant other that ever had a loved one head off to serve. It's so much easier to be the one coming home.
Another big aspect of my life this semester has been my struggle with God. Sometimes it seems like God places some amazing opportunities in my way, then he just rips them right out from underneath me! Sometimes when I pray I feel like God hears me and answers my prayers, then I feel like He changes his mind. To tell you the truth, I've been really frustrated. I think everyone goes through those times in their lives. Seriously, why does life have to be so confusing!? I haven't found all my answers yet, but I know that God DOES love me. He DOES answer my prayers in his time and I know that he DOES want me to be happy in this life. I need to just accept what I do know and have faith in it. My biggest struggle has always been patience/faith. I want to know answers.. and I want them now!! Patience for the waiting = faith.. when will I ever learn! Well, eventually I'll get this all down.
Anyway, I'll get back into the habit of this blog. I hope everyone feels caught up on my life. I tried to cover all the bases.
